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i'm back! 02.09.2004 - 8:31 a.m. hello my lovebugs! i felt sad knowing i hadn't updated in so long...and to come back and see miss me messages!! you guys are too much... look at my terrible sight now. yes, i let the all powerful "GOLD MEMBERSHIP" wear off. i feel like a crazed out loner walking through a bright white hallway, just looking and wondering what the hell is going on ....why is life so empty...sort of like "one hour photo" (his dreams at least)... i hear though that if i repurchase all my stuff will just magically come back and i won't have to rebuild everything. such an amazement these new fangled things. so anyhoo...sorry i haven't updated, but my life has been a crazy! well first of all and most importantly....my dad's cancer....Remission! yes thats right...whoooo-hoooo! and its amazing because doctor's are so confused as why its gone! they say that it shouldn't have gone away so quickly and it did. he still has to get tests once a month to make sure its for real dead, but hey who can't handle that!! i joined a dance class. i'm taking tap. i danced 15 years of my grade school life...and taking another class feels absolutely great! school is okay but much to catch you up on...remember last year, our prized student...matilda!?!!? well this year i have the all dreaded....JESSE!!! nightmare student to say the least... i never thought i'd think of a child that way...but this one is just a piece of work. he came to my school in the beginning of the year and lived with his dad, he had some problems (failed everything, terrible social skills) so my team teacher and i looked in his records. mom left dad when jesse was in 3rd grade...in 3rd grade child's grades hit rock bottom... well poor child, i sympathized with him. then he moved away...now he's back and lives with MOM!! you'd think things were just fine and dandy cause he missed mom so much. now i'm no handwriting analysis, but handwriting from before and after, dad vs. mom, he is really disturbed right now. on friday he screamed at me at the top of his lungs because i gave him ISS...i mean, i "suppose" it was unfair because i'd only confiscated 3 rubberbands from him that he was shooting across the classroom, 2 straws that he was spitting spitballs with, a bent up pen that he was using as a catapult, and then an entire bag of rubberbands because i saw him with another one and made him empty his pockets. i mean perhaps i had fallen off the deep end because i gave him ISS for only those things...right?!? dont you think!?!? well this child is just doing a number on me. any ideas for coping with problem children, please submit...i never raise my voice to my children and on friday i let him have it.... i feel guilty for losing my temper, but i'm diligently searching for ways to handle this child. he's out of control, and i do feel he is a child that would bring a gun to school and shoot my face off...(i've been sarcastic throughout this entry, but this one i'm serious) well i guess its what i get for having such a perfectly wonderful child such as matilda last year....which by the way, i'm moving back down to elementary next year!! yeah!!! i will update more often i promise...AND one of these days i'll fork out 30 bucks and make my site more pleasant to the eye!! � |
