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tales of a fourth grade nothing 02.05.2003 - 10:15 p.m. its really weird being a teacher sometimes.....i find myself going back to being a kid way to often! i'm sure EVERY body had an Andy Hames in their class. Andy Hames was the "big kid", the over weight, super awkward kid. i remember Andy throwing up in PE when i was in 4th grade. it looked like Apple jacks and cheese...NAST! so anyways, i have an "Andy Hames" in my class now. he's this big boy....he's freakin bigger than me and he's only 8! i'm freakin 24! ...and i wouldn't exactly call myself smaller than the norm...i mean my whole family does make fun of me because i need a step stool to see what's on the top shelf in the pantry...but hey, no big whoop of a size diff.... sorry, so as i was saying...he's a big boy. its sad cause i find myself looking at him like i did poor ole Andy in 4th grade...a couple of my children (the normal sized ones) come up to me with tears in their eyes...and i just put on the my loving, nurturing, mommy hat....they love it. i hug on them and make them feel all better....well my poor "Andy" gets upset and i wanna be like...."Stop cryin ya big baby!" its terrible!!! what do i do?!? but i do stifle my feelings and nurture as best i can a boy, practically bigger than me, crying so hard i feel like he's gonna vom apple jacks and cheese....sorry the memory's just so VIVID! *** speaking back on my family....they make fun of me lots. i have two sisters, an older and a younger...you'd think they're twins though. both are 6 ft tall and black curly hair...i'm 5'4" with strawberry blonde/auburn...its crazy.. one day i came in the kitchen and i see my dad and my older sis crouching in front of the fridge but looking up at the top of the fridge... i was like "what are you doing?!?!" and they said "just seeing what its like the in the world of april...never knowing whats on that top shelf" geez! how do i put up with all the persecution? yep, my fam....the jokesters! if they could only see how their timeless jokes and persistent pesterings have led my life down a path of self-destruction and self-loathing... **sobbing and then screams out, "OH GOD! WHY ME!! WHHYYYY MMEEEEEEE!!" heehee ... not really, ... i just tell myself...Dynamite comes in small packages! :) � |
